March 15, 2005
This morning can be summed up in one word - "ugh". The cyst hasn't disappeared, but it hasn't grown either. It isn't interfering with the function of the bladder, so that's good. It's something we'll probably have to deal with when the baby is born, because it doesn't look like it's budging. At the most severe it would mean surgery, at the least it will mean monitoring for a while, and handling things like bladder infections and the like.
That's the good news (okay, well, it's not what I wanted to hear, but it's not horrible, at least.)
But, since it's the Ides of March, you can't get away without a little bad news. While they were doing the scan, they noticed that there seemed to be extra fluid in the brain (go figure, Annie.) Not much, but enough to warrant a closer look. So, tomorrow, I have an appointment with a specialist to determine if it is an issue or not. The doctor was optimistic, or he didn't want to alarm me, I couldn't really tell. He said he didn't think it was the worst case scenario, which is hydrocephalus, but he wanted to be sure. He didn't see other indications of that. I handled it pretty well in the doctor's office, but when I got home and looked it up... well, that was a mistake. Dang that information highway. Then I had to call my mother and mother-in-law with news of the visit, and I lost it a little. I'm sure I scared the lights out of them, but I'm okay now. I KNOW there's nothing that I can do, and I am trying to keep a cool head about it. I'm not the type to dwell on the worst that can happen, so I'll hang in there till tomorrow. My appointment is at 3.
Now, on top of all that, I got a call a little while ago from the lab that my glucose test showed high sugar. Oy. It was BARELY over the limit, and now I have to do the 3 hour fasting test, where they take your blood every hour and you can't eat, and blah blah blah. It's not a fun test to take, and I know it's going to make me sick and it'll come back just fine. I really doubt that I have gestational diabetes. I don't fit the profile at all, but hey, with the luck I'm having... who knows.
AND it's raining.
So, that's the post for the day, and now I need some high quality chocolate. America's Finest would hit the spot right now, but M&M's will do in a pinch.
Anyway, thanks for the thoughts and prayers this morning, you guys are just great! I'll be back on tomorrow evening with the results of this next scan. At least I'll get to see this baby up close and personal-- those high level ultrasounds are too cool! I'll post a picture if I can.
Till tomorrow.
Awww Shannon! I was hoping for better news than all of this! I think this is the most difficult stage (going through all the motions and waiting to find out whether there is any thing to be concerned about and for which to prepare). I am sure you will feel much better, regardless of the findings, when you have some resolution. In the meantime, I continue to pray for that baby to be perfectly healthy and for you to remain healthy!
Posted by: Debby at March 15, 2005 05:02 PM"And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Posted by: Joey Wolfe at March 15, 2005 05:13 PMSo...you've heard the fluid on the brain story before? and now again? What is this, like, the new "cancer scare"? I'm really convinced it's just a reason for them to do more ultrasounds so they can "practice" more, because they obviously need to! They don't need to be scaring people though. There must have been some seminar a few years ago that talked all about this, so now they over-analyze.
And I am really convinced everything will be OK with your baby, too! The whole thing makes me really angry! Like I said before, and I can say it because I just went through it; don't worry!
We are all praying for you and the baby, hang in there, everything WILL be just fine, OK? We love you!
Posted by: Aunt J at March 16, 2005 07:05 AMI love you sis- and i am praying for you and little ashleta. (that's the name you chose right?) Let me know if i can do anything, okay?
Posted by: ashmeg at March 16, 2005 07:44 AMI had to look up hydrocephalus too, and I can imagine why you would be upset about the whole thing. I can't help but agree with the post above regarding doctors and their desire to perform as many tests as possible (=mo money), but even if that wasn't the case, being cautious will at least catch anything in the early stages and take care of it in time. Regarding the cyst? I've heard that these things also dissapear once the baby is born because all of the extra rich blood and nutrients aren't there anymore feeding the cyst/cancer/tumor/ whatever happens to be there. Positive thoughts going out your way!!! We're thinking about you and wishing you the best.
Posted by: Suzanne at March 16, 2005 10:48 AM((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
I love you, little girl, and am praying for you and the baby... for God's healing touch on both of you... sometimes I think things were easier in the old days... when Nanny carried me in her belly... ultrasounds and tests are available now that they didn't have then... she got pregnant... rested when she felt tired... took to bed when she felt bad... danced around the living room when she felt good... and waited for the surprise at the end of the nine months... nowadays... with so many tests... all the possibilities fill your heart with fears... because mostly that's what they are... is just possibilities... kind of like the label on my medicine bottle... if I believed all the potential side effects, I'd never take the medicine...
God's in control... and I trust Him... after all, He loves you even more than I do...
