I should have known it would turn out this way when I learned the physician's name was Dr. Vague. No, I'm kidding, that wasn't his name, but he should look into having it changed. I suppose it's not his fault, but this was a very unsatisfying visit. I was hoping he'd say, "Your ob made a mistake and there's absolutely no reason to be concerned." But he didn't.

What he did say was, yes, there is a higher than normal level of fluid in the brain. It's not a lot, but we need to monitor it. Come back in two weeks, and we'll see if it's increased. He said some more technical stuff, too-- but I won't bog you down with the details. If you want them, write/call me and I'll share.

I know all the possibilities-- the best being that it will simply reabsorb and have no affect on the baby whatsoever. The worst, it increases and things get bad from there. I stay away from that line of thinking though. Everytime my thoughts head in that direction, I get all weepy and I can't survive the next two weeks like that.

The doctor wasn't willing to say everything was okay, but he did say he didn't think it was the worst case. But the truth is, it's not really in his hands, and I know that. God will do as He sees fit, and I trust that He knows better than me. Our lives are fragile threads maintained by His loving care-- but what better Hands to tend us? It doesn't mean that I am not sad or scared or weak... but it does mean that I am not alone, I am not forgotten, and I am not hopeless, not ever.

Anyway, thank you for your words of encouragement, and the prayers I know you were all saying today. I really appreciate that. Keep this little one in your thoughts in the next two weeks, that all the fears will be unfounded, and the worry that seeks entrance into our lives will find no hold. I am optimistic, despite the blue tone of this post. I think the odds are really good that this will resolve itself-- and that is how I will continue to think until I am told otherwise.

And that is that. I'll be tucking this away now, because life demands it of me. This is a nonstop ride we're on around here, and maybe that's not such a bad thing at the moment. Busyness has it's perks.

That's all for now. Dinner is ready, and I must feed the masses, else there will be mutiny...